I thought a lot about whether I would want to post about this or not, and I’ve chosen to share my story.
Earlier this year I was in a car accident and it was by far the scariest thing I’d ever experienced in my life. In a matter of seconds, my whole life was placed on hold. Everything I had planned, looked forward to, and had in mind was cancelled in the aftermath of the accident. The day following my accident was my 23rd birthday and I didn’t know what to do or how to feel. I was grateful that God protected me, but the little voice inside my head had me running in a downward spiral of “how could this happen?“, “why would this happen?” and “where do I go from here?”.
For me, driving was my biggest fear as a teenager. I hated the idea of getting behind the wheel of a car and having to be in control of a car. I had so much anxiety with the thought of getting hit by a car, or causing an accident. Then, it happened. I was driving home from work one night and another car struck mine. I am still very anxious throughout any traffic jams, but I have been learning and putting effort towards calming my fears and anxiety while letting God work in me.
At first, I was in total shock. More so because I hated driving in the first place and this event confirmed my fears. I was grateful that God kept me alive and throughout the days following the accident, I was mentally in a different place. I didn’t want to be stressed about dealing with insurance companies, and finding out ways to place all the pieces of my life back in order.
I was still. I can honestly say that despite the fear, anxiety, and mood swings — I had time to just sit and be still. I didn’t want to be worried about my full-time job, my classes for school, nor all the errands I had to run. I truly feel that sometimes we need to experience these moments that make us re-evaluate our worldview, and show us what’s really important.
I felt that before all this, I was putting a lot of my wants before my relationship with God. I chose not to focus on the ‘who’, ‘what’, or ‘why’ in the accident. I chose to look at God, who still had my back. There are so many times in life that I have gotten caught up in things that weren’t necessary for me.
I really feel that my experience was an epic ‘Be Still’ moment. Despite my fears, my anxiety and the aftermath of the physical event – I was spiritually reset. Once again, my heart is full and I know that God is always with me and he has a plan for me. A future that I sometimes doubt but, he always remains faithful.
“Be still before the Lord
and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.“PSALM 37:7 (NIV)
If you ever experience anything that you feel has turned your world upside down, take a moment to give God a chance to work on you and to speak to you. Allow yourself to have a ‘Be Still’ moment, and trust God through the process. He is always there, and there is nothing that can keep us from him goodness, and his plan for us.
“He got up, rebuked the wind and said to the waves, “Quiet! Be still!” Then the wind died down and it was completely calm.”MARK 4:39 (NIV)