Let’s get real

let’s get real

Do you ever have days where you feel discouraged, or in a ‘Spiritual Slump’? (YES, I said it). I want to be real with you. There are days when I don’t feel like reading my bible, or praying, or even getting up out of bed. If you’ve ever been in a slump before, you know it makes you feel down, discouraged, and like your faith isn’t moving mountains.

I gave my life to Christ when I was twelve years old. Since then, I can honestly say that I haven’t felt my faith to have always been consistently strong throughout my everyday life over the last eleven years. There were periods of time where I wasn’t involved in church, I wasn’t reading the Word, I wasn’t praying consistently, and I wasn’t acknowledging God in everything I was doing.

I’ve gone through a few trials in life so far, that really challenged my faith and increased my fear. Though, now at twenty-three I am confident in my relationship with God and I feel so much more mature, spiritually. I struggled with guilt and shame because I felt I could have been so much more faithful and consistent through my difficult times, and God would pull me out of the dark anyways. This is why I feel that it’s so important to sit and B R E A T H E, even if just for a moment everyday. The world changes so much, so quickly, and so unexpectedly that it can leave us feeling like “What’s next?”.

I love reading the book of Psalms, because it is one of the main parts of the bible that shows us the good, bad, and the ugly. In Psalm 13, David feels that God has forgotten him and hidden his face from him (v. 1). In verses 5 and 6, he says “but I have trusted in your steadfast love; my heart shall rejoice in your salvation (v. 5). I will sing to the Lord, because he has dealt bountifully with me (v. 6)”.

Psalm 13

I want to encourage you to follow these four steps the next time you feel that God has forgotten you, or like your faith is low.

1. TRUST in God’s promises

2. REJOICE in your salvation

3. PRAISE his name

4. REFRESH your spirit, and PRAY.

Whenever we feel that are faith is lacking, we need to be reminded of our trust in God and the promises he has made for us. We need to rejoice, praise his name, and refresh our spirit through consistent prayer. Remember that God is always with us and we are never alone. Psalm 16:8 (ESV) tells us “I have set the Lord always before me; because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.” Psalm 16:11 also tells us “You make known to me the path of life; in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.”

I want to encourage you to not be discouraged. God has already won the war of the battles that we face everyday. When we are deep in our sorrow (I have been there) it clouds our vision of the future that God has planned. Remember that God made these promises, knowing our every move from the minute we are born until the moment we pass away. He is still here. Do not give up. No matter what you are going through, tell God everything – the good, the bad, the messy feelings and regrets. He wants it all.

No matter who you are or where you think you are headed, our God has so much more for you. Don’t allow the enemy to convince you otherwise. Life is tough but God is stronger than anything that has a grip on you. He never gives up on you. He’s there with open arms, no matter what you feel guilty about or however long its been. It is time for you to hold onto the hands that are extended to you, and trust that there is so much more.

Surrendering My Desires to Heaven

Hi there, my name is Angie, and I am thrilled that you are reading this post today! I am truly expectant that readers will be encouraged through this platform, and I feel blessed to have a small space on here to spark hope and awaken courage. For my first post, I would love to share with you my testimony and exalt the Lord’s faithfulness and goodness.

Growing up in a Christian home as a Missionary kid and then as a Pastor’s kid, being involved in the ministry was the norm for me. However, I soon came to the point where I had to evaluate my Christian faith separate from my parents.

At the start of my college experience, I took my future into my own hands. I planned exactly what the next four to five years of my life would look like and how I would reach these goals, and I had no intent in confiding my aspirations with God. I was determined to succeed on my own strength.

When Christ was no longer the center of my life or the decisions I was making for myself, fear and uncertainty of the future began to creep in.

I found myself in the wrong relationships, searching for validation in the wrong places, which only allowed the enemy to chain me down with shame and feelings of worthlessness.

For several years prior, I had struggled with Hypochondria (an obsession with the idea of having a life-threatening disease), but during this time, I was battling it more than I ever had before. I found myself at several doctor visits, on antidepressants, and therapy. I felt suffocated by my worry and overwhelmed with hopelessness.

Suddenly, the Lord intervened in my life. I will forever be grateful to Him for disrupting my plans, flipping my world upside down, and revealing to me His higher purpose for my life.

I had to ask myself an important question, which I highly encourage you to ask yourself today, “Do my dreams align with what the Lord has for me, and am I living a life worthy of God?”.

I felt lost, unsure about the future, and carried a heavyweight of shame, fear, and anxiety. I said enough was enough, and after graduating from community college, I packed my bags and went to a discipleship training school. I had no idea what to expect, I had no idea what I was doing, but one thing I knew for certain, I was exhausted of chasing after my selfish ambitions. My soul yearned to know Him more and receive His guidance.

During my time there, the Lord placed heavily on my heart His plan for me. To be a part of what He was doing in the lives of those around me. He called me into the mission field, where I spent three months in Nepal, serving the people in the nation.

In the past year, the Lord has taught me what it means to surrender my dreams and desires fully. He taught me what it means to submit oneself, to step into what He is doing in the lives of other people.

I had to give over control of my own life and allow myself to be led by Christ. Witnessing the impact the Lord made in the lives of people through my obedience to serve His kingdom has significantly marked me. I have found greater joy serving the Kingdom than I ever did serving myself.

When I surrendered my desires to heaven, the Lord gave me fullness of joy, hope for the future, stripped me of my shame, and gave me the strength to overcome my fears.

Jeremiah 10:23 says, “LORD, I know that people’s lives are not their own; it is not for them to direct their own steps,” as humans we have this tendency to set our own path, be the ruler of our lives. This world encourages us to follow our hearts, achieve self-actualization, chase after our ambitions, however separate from God, we are incapable of attaining our own true destiny.

Mathew 6:33 says to “seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” The Lord knows the desires of your heart; He knows your needs as well as your wants. When you surrender it all to Him and seek to honor Him first above all else, He promises heavenly treasures, divine blessings, and fulfillment of His purpose in your life!

Giving Him full reign over my life has been the best decision I could have ever made. I have never been more expectant for the future and more confident in my God-given purpose. He has captivated my heart like no other could.

Self love and daily affirmations

daily affirmations & bible verses

If you’re anything like me, you may experience burnout pretty often. Between work, school, responsibilities, and trying to squeeze in some fun once in a while — it can seem like there aren’t enough hours in the day and you can’t get anything done. I constantly need to re-route the thoughts in my mind that say I’m not enough, I can’t do this or that, or that I’m all alone in my problems & issues. 

These things make me feel so vulnerable and I feel guilt and shame for just for having a bad day or feeling down & anxious. 

If this is you, I want you to know that you aren’t alone & that this is not the end. There’s so much more for you. God has created you exactly as you are and he loves you. There isn’t any single person on the earth, nor that has ever lived that is an exception to that. 

Sometimes we need to shine a little light in our own lives, and we can do that by seeking God. For instance, I’m overwhelmed at moment with homework, laundry, and preparing for another week at work. These things may seem silly and there isn’t anything wrong with those tasks. These are mundane things that I do regularly – but, when I’m running my to-do list, anxiety creeps in. I start worrying about days that haven’t even come to pass. I want to be living here & now. I want to take a minute to BREATHE. 

If you’re feeling anxious and you’re thoughts are spiraling: 

  1. You are not alone 
  2. Take a minute to BREATHE 
  3. Sit somewhere quiet and read the daily affirmations (in the picture above), changing ‘you’ for ‘I’ 
  4. Jot down the Bible verses alongside the affirmations & highlight them in your bible 
  5. Remember that whatever you are feeling does not reflect who or how you are – but is simply the stress you feel in your current situation 

It is difficult, when feeling down/anxious/emotional to separate our situation with our individual being and relationship with God. If you’re anything like me, you may internalize your emotions and your thoughts tend to dictate how you may feel about yourself. Just know that those NEGATIVE THOUGHTS WILL LEAVE. Even at 23, I am still learning what self-love is. Sometimes it is just taking a moment to say “hey, you are loved.” “You are beautiful.” “You are unique – and there isn’t anything wrong with that.” 

Don’t let the enemy steal your joy, take your happiness and convince you of anything opposite to what God says about you and who you are. 

This spiritual battle that we fight – it begins in our mind. 

STAND YOUR GROUND. Flip those negative thoughts into bible verses and positive affirmations. We are all loved. We are all forgiven. We all exist and have a purpose that is handpicked by God. Don’t let the enemy deter you from your truth. Pain is real and life has some bad times. No matter the reason for what you are feeling, YOU ARE YOU! There isn’t any better way to be! 💛